Sometimes you just feel like you should write things down, and that's how I feel today. Things get so crazy sometimes. It almost feels like your life is spinning out of control. I'm not even sure if we really have control of ourselves. Sometimes it almost seems as though fate is dangling us by marionette strings, and we just do what it wants us to. I've been having lots of issues lately. It feels like I am just swamped with memories of stupid shit I've done. It's almost like "Was that even me and wtf was I thinking?" I dunno I just can't belive I've done some stuff that I have. I never thought I would have an online life. I got so addicted to my computer I would have slept with it if I could have. Thank God those days are over. I can't say that I'm not glad of all the bad shit that's happened in my life because it's made me the person I am today and I am kinda proud of some of the things I've done. I dunno, I just kinda feel lost lately, like almost everything I have grown to love and care about has been somehow ripped away from me. I get tired of being alone in a world that's so broken and cold. Of course I guess a lot of people are. My biggest problem is that I focus on something that walked away from me like 2 years ago. Why is it people do that? You pine over a love that walked away like you were nothing, but you just still aodre them? Anywho I suppose I've bitched enough, so c-ya.